Job (Touch wood)

I got a full time job, increasing the count of computer Engineers in the world by 1 (Touch wood). After graduating a few months ago, and working as an intern since then, this offer has come (Touch wood). But contrary to what I expected, I did not even feel the slightest excitement. Anyways, hope this does not fall through and am keeping my fingers crossed ...

2

Life always presents me with choices that I need to make at every important stage (apart from the daily routine ones), even though I don't ask for them most of the time. Though choices are always needed by an average individual to thoroughly analyze any situation and make an informed appropriate decision, I regret having them! Coz I always seem to have only 'two' proper choices - no more, no less! Either this or that; or nothing. Even if I had a myriad choices to begin with - I could always come up with a random algorithm to adjudge the pros and cons of each one, and discard all, but two! My algorithm ceases to give the best intented result after that. Don't know why. No amount of time spent will make way for one clear winner. No, there is no winner. It is just about the loser. I seem to lose equally (or lose more than, with the other one!) with either of them. The moment my heart picks one, the next second it goes out to the one I discarded. Sympathetic me. No, Indecisive me. No, Symapthetic me. I begin to realise that I will be losing this, and that, and that because of that; since I am not going to choose that/this. True, but this is more like a weighing-balance with no objects in either pan. What am I to do? I finally pick one (using a greedy-algorithm logic and making the best decision which is right for that moment; and that moment only). Years (read Seconds) down the lane, I always, always, always regret not picking the other option. My mind never ceases to imagine (fantasize!?) opportunities that I might have got had I chosen the other one; and those seem more rosy than what I have now - simply coz I picked 'this' instead of 'that'.

Therefore "2" happens to be the number that I wish could "Thu" and remove from the entire number system. We should have no choices, one or more than three, from which we could pick the ultimate option, but never two!

Value!

Have you ever wondered why we never value someone/thing much when it is just around the corner?

A girl/guy talks to you often, and you heard from your friends about their interest in you - but you have not been all that interested, so you try to brush them off a little bit, make no effort to respond to them properly, tell them you are busy, do everything to overlook/ignore them ... and then when they finally stop giving you the 'importance', all of a sudden realise you DO like her/him or wish they make you feel kinda special again?

Only when we move to the other side of the world, we seem to realise that we have always taken undue advantage of the many mundane things our parents do for us and infact we could have always been a little more helping and more loving?

When we lose or misplace anything from a pencil to a cellphone or a car, we then wish and pray that IF only we get that thing back, we would always be careful the next time, and still manage to lose it atleast one another time?

Maybe we should not take too many people/things for granted and try to give everything its due attention, just not to regret later! Who knows, somethings can never be replaced and never may come back again.

I am not sure if everyone feels the same though...

No

I have a friend of mine, N, and she is getting married in the next few days. I have known N quite well for about three years. While she was at college, she had two good friends in S and A. S and A where aliens to eachother though. N being the girl she was, it was difficult for S and A not to take the relationship to the next level. A was this very sauve, social guy and had movie-star looks. S was very average, but a simple and intelligent guy, who had a very small friends circle. Both were nice. But N had started liking S; she could not think of A as anyone more than a friend. She had no radical reason for that though. It so happened that S had finally mustered enough courage to tell N, and she did accept his proposal as well.

Unaware of all this, a few weeks later A did open his heart to N too. N said that she was not interested in his proposal and requested him that they still be just good friends. N did not tell him anything about S though. A did not lose hope; he rather hoped that she will accept his proposal one day atleast, if not today. so A waited for about two months; during which they were talking to each other normally. Again A brought up the topic to N casually and asked her again for her reply; this time she could not hold it and told him that they can only be friends. She also told him that she was already in a relationship with S. That left A breathless.

A then regained his composure after a couple of minutes and told N that this was the last she would hear of him (No, not suicide and all, this is not Tamil cinema!). His explanation was that he would never be able to see her as a friend again and that would mean living a lie through out. And now that she is somebody's GF, it was only natural that he wanted to slowly change his heart. Sure, it took him a couple of years or so, but true to his word, he never made any attempts to contact her. He also never responded to any of her many means to contact him after that.

N has developed a soft corner for A. She wants him to forget her totally, and move on, and be happy. She did not want to be the reason for A's pain. She somehow feels guilty about the whole thing and wished all of this had not happened in the first place. Whenever N talks to me about A, she gets really happy; and starts saying things like - he talked to my paati so lovingly, he played with my niece and even helped my mom in the kitchen once.

She wanted to invite him for her marriage with S. She also knew that the news of her marriage would definitely cause him one 'final' pain. But she thought it would be better if he hears from the horse's mouth, rather than through friends.

So she did send him a postcard a few days ago. A replied thanking her for inviting him and said he will definitely try to attend the wedding. On reading that email she smirked, for she knew, that she will never meet him anyday henceforth. Even if the wedding was in the same town that A lived, he would definitely come up with a zillion reasons as to why he could not attend the wedding, after it is over. She knows it. Can do nothing about it though.

After I saw N's case, I am beginning to see the point of view of the person who 'SAID' no. Before that, I had always thought that a one-way love would only have a toll on the person that was in love, and not the one being loved.

Reason: Tamil Cinema le adhellam cleara sonnadhille yaarum! So allarum 'No' solradhuku munnadi konjam oru dabaikku rendu daba yosichu sollungo! Ungalukku yaaru kittayum 'Amam' sollara madhiri chance illainu, close-a pazahaguradhe nippatteekongo, indirecta yaarayum encourase pannadheeno. Plus ungalukku yaaru 'Amam' solluvange, yaaru maatangonu, korricta judge panne therinjikkongo. Gear-a tappu tappunu munnadiye maathi tholachuradheengo. Relationships le manasthabam appo than varadhu. Rendu perukkum adhaan nalladhu. Purinjikineengella allam!?

ABCD

I, very unfortunately, happened to see a Tam movie called ABCD. Three women and one Robot have acted in it. I am not going to critique on the story though. But, what was highly idiotic was the way in which the entire "Male Sex" was portrayed - testosterone-driven, highly sex-starved, lusting creatures that seem to think only with the wrong head! Not to forget the ubiquitous harassing husband, who has no business other than to extort money from the wife's parents, niece, sister's friend's dog., and whoever else he could possibly relate her to. And yeah, I almost forgot the weeping lady character who has the following lines to say to the Hero - "Before I ever saw you, I have ALWAYS hated the Male of the following species - Humans, Cows, Caterpillars, Rats, Snakes, Owls and Spiders - not necessarily in that order".

I don't even know why such movies are made the way they are, with characters like these, rather than sticking to the "positive" realistic ones. I don't deny the fact that there will be some cheap 'porikkis', but to generalize things and heap abuses on the whole lot, and worse, to show the same thing again and again in different movies one after another is ridiculous to say the least (and yeah, a pain to watch, that too after hours of downloading or worse paying money to do so!). Climax of such movies generally are - Women are God and we should build minimum two temples per head (more depending on financial ability or severity of any sin committed against them), and Men are as described above. Pillayarappa Tamil cinemave nee than marakkame kapathanum... God Bless!

(P.S: To quote SS in a relevant context "Pombalaiye madhikkeravan than Ambalai, Ambalaiye madhikkereva than Pombalai". But the "punch dialogues" in the first few minutes of the movie ABCD, will even put SS to shame!)